Fri, 19 Aug 2005 05:25:00 GMT

When did being around Kazuki start to make me nervous? When did the thought of changing clothes in front of my best friend and sharing a room with him start to make me blush?

I know I love him, but I used to be able to handle it better...

Maybe it's a side effect of missing him so much the past strange year?

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 05:04:21 GMT

I'm...back. I'm back on Tatsumiya Island, with Kazuki and everyone. It seems like a miracle, and I suppose it really is.

It's strange though... I have no memory of anything that happened during the year that I was gone. I can't remember anything I might have learned, or how I managed to restore my body and make it back. All of that is a complete blank, whenever I try to think of it.

And yet... I can remember all of the pain. The loneliness and misery that came from being stuck there, and how badly I wanted to return, to fulfill my promise to Kazuki. All of that, I can remember. But why can't I remember anything that actually happened? It's as if... I was gone, and then suddenly I woke up and a year had passed in the blink of an eye. And yet, I can still feel the passage of time, because I can still remember the emotions I felt during it if nothing else.

I wonder if the Festums themselves made it like this? Did they somehow selectively erase my memory, so that I couldn't reveal whatever secrets of theirs I had learned? Was I even really with them? Why don't I seem to be at all assimilated? How did I make it back?

There are still too many questions left unanswered...that will probably never be answered.

But I'm just happy to be back. I've never felt this much emotion...in almost as long as I can remember. And I'm just happy to be back. I managed to keep my promise, Kazuki.

Minashiro Soushi